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Date: 8/13/2003 12:04:20 AM Eastern Daylight Time
Efant2000 [11:32 PM]: so i would like 4 u 2 do me a favor if u could
DelightedMysterE [11:33 PM]: what would that b
Efant2000 [11:33 PM]: ...and tell me xactly what ur conversation with jack cliff was
DelightedMysterE [11:34 PM]: i do not repeat my self its old im not into drama i just told him what i thought
Efant2000 [11:34 PM]: not too old if it was discussed in detail this last saturday
Efant2000 [11:36 PM]: with peeps tellin me how you and josh were slammin me...about how helping brian get 2gether with matt was a supposed plan against frank
DelightedMysterE [11:38 PM]: AND MAY I ASK WHO TOLD YOU THIS
Efant2000 [11:40 PM]: someone who is a true friend and is smart enough to know that i would never have said to Jack that Joey and josh said u had AIDS..
DelightedMysterE [11:40 PM]: FONZIE I KNOW YOU AND YOU ONLY WORK TO HELP PEOPLE TO HELP YOU IN SOME WAY AS FOR YOU AND FRANK WELL IM NOT INVOLVED BUT IT DOESNT SEEM LIKE SOMETHING YOU WOULDNT DO
DelightedMysterE [11:41 PM]: FONZIE TRUTH IS UR CANIVING ....... AND WELL YES YOU DO GOOD FOR PEOPLE BUT I HAVE ALWAYS SEEN THE OTHER SIDE IN THAT GOOD
Efant2000 [11:41 PM]: and exactly what did i "want" when i helped u?
DelightedMysterE [11:41 PM]: WHEN DID YOU HELP ME
DelightedMysterE [11:43 PM]: WELL
Efant2000 [11:43 PM]: i never knew you were as empty as u r
DelightedMysterE [11:44 PM]: IF YOU THINK YOU CULTURING ME WAS HELPING ME THAT ENDED UP BEING ME ............UR ARM CANDY
Efant2000 [11:45 PM]: arm candy?
DelightedMysterE [11:45 PM]: YOU KNOW WHAT IM TLKIN ABOUT
Efant2000 [11:46 PM]: if u still believe that than u really don;t know me
Efant2000 [11:47 PM]: and thats ok
Efant2000 [11:47 PM]: i never expect u to
DelightedMysterE [11:48 PM]: FONZIE AFTER THE YEAR I HAVE SPENT WITH YOU ITS BEEN FUN BUT IVE NOTICE HOW YOU BEAR BAD NEWS WITH EVERYTHING AND LIKE TO MAKE THE BAD NEWS KNOWN AND HOW YOU ALSO MAKE MORE OUT OF A LITTLE THING THEN IT IS
Efant2000 [11:49 PM]: bad news? like u fucking josh over by not being able to pay ur rent, or getting a ticket and having his car empounded,how for the longest time u seemed ambitousless
Efant2000 [11:50 PM]: of course u don't listen to the times i praise u for getting ur shcedule 2gether
Efant2000 [11:50 PM]: getting another job
DelightedMysterE [11:51 PM]: YA WELL FONZIE I DID IT ALL MY SELF AND SOME OF THE THINGS WERENT GRACIOUS AND TO BE PRAISED BUT I HAVE TO LEARN MYSELF HOW TO FIX THEM AND IM DOING THAT ON MY OWN
Efant2000 [11:52 PM]: yes all good but u still have yet to answer my question about jack cliff...
DelightedMysterE [11:53 PM]: TO BE HONEST I PROBALLY WONT DRAMA ISNT MY CATAGORIE AND ITS HISTORY
Efant2000 [11:54 PM]: further proof it never happend thank you good night
DelightedMysterE [11:55 PM]: PLEASE WHATEVER ...........DONT BE MAD THAT IM NOT PULLED OUT THE SHADE
Efant2000 [11:56 PM]: there is no shade...just catty ego driven queens with nothing better to do than talk shit
DelightedMysterE [11:57 PM]: OKAY SURE IF YOU SAY SO
Efant2000 [11:57 PM]: lol that was my friend Lauryn typing...
Efant2000 [11:57 PM]: cause we all know i can be ego driven too
DelightedMysterE [11:57 PM]: AND AS FOR JOSH THIS WHOLE CONVO WAS ON MY BEHALF NOT HIS
Efant2000 [11:57 PM]: thats not what i heard
DelightedMysterE [11:58 PM]: SURE U CAN BUT OH WELL
Efant2000 [11:58 PM]: in fact i heard u josh and frank had lots to say...and to think Brian almost conviced me to go that night to Davids
Efant2000 [11:58 PM]: but what is done is done goodnight
DelightedMysterE [11:59 PM]: GOOD NIGHT
so ya here i am again ... well lets see what to tell you all.... okay i want to start by sayin i found my self in the past realy unhappy with my self and the way i conducted my life back then , by reading all of my entries here i found that i am a real happy person now then i was at the beggining .... so ya ...:-P I also forgot to inform everyone that i have a new job and that my boss has to be the biggest ass ever but oh well he isnt anyone important ill do what i want .....lol ..... im actualy going to work two jobs too... wow joey working whats that ..... ya i know its not me most of you are probally thinking but guess what it is ..... i money hungry i guess .....and as for guys well i met a realy nice kid/guy at the board walk will i persue it well i dont know yet but it might be a possibility.... okay for those of you saying well what happen to not looking for it .... Im not ... its just a friendship now ..... im going to be looking for a job up in cherryhill because well job opertunitys are there and well we all know how cumberland county is with jobs ....well i dont know what else to tell you all but good night ........
ello everyone ...well i havent been here in awhile to write ...well here i go well in the past since i last wrote i have gotten a new job (HOT TOPIC) and i ended up single again oh well....better off i guess ... well i dont know im blahhh .....i dont know i feel wierd today .... today i woke up and it was 5:45 pm and i lost a day i dont know why but i freaked out it was horrible i was realy scared i dont know why ..... i just felt like i lost control of everything....i was just scared ....Well this past weekend was CUCAS wedding it was so pritty and i cryed so much lol it was bad ....she has such a great thing in the future for her .... it was fun ..... stayed in a crappy motel that felt like it was hell in the middle of no where ..... fonzie had the heat on so high i think i lost about 50 pounds......anyway she was realy realy pritty and her dress was so gourgous.....well the guys came down saturday night and we ended up going to the silver dollar diner .... it was good to be in my old nieghbor hood ..... i wish i had a chance to visit all my friends there that i miss ...... i ended up watching my pavilion movie and i forgot how much i missed all my old friends they were so nice and kewl to hang with and it was like blahhhh.... oh well i think ill give charly and raven acall later and see what they are up to to see if they want to spend some time together again like old times .....i dont know i really i have to figure things out about myself and others its just a blurr to me ... yes i do have to grow up and yes i do have to learn to make sence of things and well i think i totaly need a new way i dont know why it just makes sence to me that way ......maybe go somewhere for a little and figure things out .... not like a week just a day with my slef .... maybe like go to the woods or something like that visit my family or something the family that i havent tlked to in ages .... or even just go to the shore and walk and tlk ...... or u know maybe its time for me to go visit the psy again she would be helpufll maybe i dont know i just think maybe its all that ive been up to taking up all my energy and all of a sudden a breakdown ....lol .... i dont know its just odd for me the first true erey feeling in like maybe 5 months or so .. . i forgot how it feels well. as for a good note i have been doing a good job at hot topic and i was employee of the month ... and i ended up doing alot of fun stuff now me and chris are friends again i guess .... just his g/f is kinda anal in a way she thinks we are fucking i guess .... and he is like keeping his distance witch i dont like cause we were realy close and we use to hang out alot .....ive also seen ally who is the kewlest shes with this guy who looks like lurch from the adams family omg his grill is so busted and she lauphed when i said that .... GOd christmas is coming up and im realy not in the mood for it this year .... i dont know its hard to celebrate anymore with out my family .... By family i know that i have my aunts and uncles but i mean my real family...MY mom and my sisters and brothers we havent had a real family ... or a real christmas .... i dont know its just hard to think of with out crying and i miss it ....... i feel bad for my brother who has to spend christmas with my aunt and uncle and there kids .... hes sees how they get a different type of love that he doesnt he has never had a true christmas and he hasnt had it with the family like his mom his sisters his brothers .....all at once ....... its just a bad holiday for me i dont know i get moody and depressed and now living out of the house with out real family its kinda scary i dont know what i am exspected to do ......its a big step........of course i have my friends but its not the same i miss christmas with my mom and my sisters and brothers .........i feel bad too because i fergotten the day of the dead to put roses on my moms grave ......well i guess thats all for now ...... so well i will see u all later
.....okay -UPDATE- ....okay heres whats been going on in my life ....like last time this is all going to be ranting so it might not make any sence what so ever and if it doesnt i apolligies for it....
Okay First off ...Im doing real good ... with working at Hot Topics and with friends and with Marc ...
Work is going good I absolutely adore this job it is like a whole new world for me and i enjoy it ...Retail is super awsome and i work with super kewl people ...Like just the other day i think it was monday .... Debbie couldnt work so jaye came in to work for her .... I never worked with jaye so i was kinda scared because i dint know how he ran the store ....so When i first clocked in it was like okay just work no fulling around ...so i did alot of the rock wall and stuff like that and all of a sudden jaye is like starting little fun fights with me seeing who can queen it more of course i think i one ....I also work with people like ladi and crystal and ashley and dave and Carissa my hunny ... they are all kewl individuals....so thats basically my work for now .....On sunday we all went to eastern state pen.. in philly ..
We went to eastern state for a haunted like tour...OMG...It was FUcking scary ...not just because of the people dressed up but because eastern state is the hauntedest prision in the US.... and i believe it it was like all funny feelings all that night it was like very sad scared and eary .......(OH sorry I failed to tell you who all went .....Well lets see of course it was me , then josh ,fonzie , chris,frank, nancy,josh's cousin, her friend , and ian...) so We are walking around and it at first isnt that scary ...then u go into this other house and it starts getting scaryer ..lol and in the second house they have a 3-D part .... OOOOh I loved that part that wasnt scary i actualy wanted to stay there because of this real real cute guy there ....OMG he was like maybe 5'10 and nice blonde dreds and his septum pierced and gaged about maybe a 4 .. and his tounge was done omg i just wanted to stay but they drug me out....:-( so we went threw that house okay scary but i still could walk ....Next was the third and final house we start walking in and its pitch dark and small so thats were i start to freak because of clostaphobia ...any way we walking and cant see anything and all of a sudden a trap door on the wall falls and all of a sudden there is this fucking guy all freaked out in his costume and banging a bone a genst the wall .... so fonzi and joshes cousin grab me and start to runn then there is this gurl who also i like but wouldnt go out with her because she has nasty thingy between her legs but any way this gurl was scary too she had nice dreds and she just look demented so soon as josh's cousin seen her she jumped on me i had to carry her out so im carring her out we make it out and there is that gurl again she followed both josh and his cousin out because they were freaking out...so josh's cousin runs behind me and starts hiding and pulling me down and up agenst a fence so she couldnt get scred by that gurl ....it was awsome ...after the haunted place we all desided to go to south street and go to cosi ...this was a funn time too...welll we are at cosi and we ask for a table that seats 9 ...lol thats when they should of known that it was going to mean trouble ....welll we are all at our table and we start orderin of course i got my usual #33 and a coke and 2 mudslides ...yum ...Ian got the fucking smores kit thingy that was fun watching them set afire all the marshmellows and that stuff ummmm frank got the same as I and chris got something veggi.and i dont know what nancy or fonzi got so ...we are all sitting and bull shitting and all of a sudden this cute guy walks by us and goes into the bathroom ....well Fonzi desides to get up and follow him ya that was funny cause cosis bathrooms are a one man room ...well thats wasnt the end of that after fonzi goes in Nancy goes right in there tooo....ya it was fun ....then im looking out the window onto the street and i see this gurl all in vinyl omg i just wanted to tair it off of here and wear it me and chris were like watching her walk by ....Then as she walked by a huge group of cute guys walked by us and all the group was like following the groupof guys with our eyes ...lol the manager of cosi was lauphing her ass off.. Or waitress was funn we played a game with her it was called guess who straight ....lol so we gave her a couple minutes to observe us and she got another waitress in on the game too ... so they start nameing of Frank-Gay/ Chris-gay/ Josh- Bi/ Fonzi- BI/ Ian - straight/ Joe-straight.....WHat ??? okay .....so i really fooled them then i acktually played how i do act then they really knew ....so we get done there and end up going home because it was late .....After I got home i tryed to get hold of marc to tell him all about the prision and i couldnt ....Im glad me and marc are friends and not rushing into anything....Marc is kewl... he likes to talk alot of course the past two nights i havent been able to get hold of him and last night i fainally did .....he was real buissy studdying for a test and getting his car fixed witch is going to cost him a fortune ....and he just tried out for christmas carrol I told him hes going to get tiny tim ....but he doesnt think so.....marc I truly think is a good friend if anything ... and i would never want to loss him .....well i guess thats it for now tlk to u later
Okay I know I havent wroten again ..... But thats what happens when you start to work a lot....Yay!!...Anyway Please follow me here Im just going to start ranting off and it might not sound right but I hope that most of you egt the jist of my life these couple of days .........
First off I think I found my trueself this weekend ... I dont know how but its like ive shedded my old skin and became a new person ...Im realy busting my ass for hot topics because i seriously like this job and would love to become a manager in the future...Ive also cancled planns to go with josh to Ruthys ...Witch I was glad I went to cause I seen how much it ment to her for me to be there....and It made me feel good ....
I have a New friend now too...Hes super awsome(Debbie from work) his names Marc spelled M*A*R*(C) no K he will kill if you spell his name with a K... Hes very attractive...And hes determined...and thats what I like about him...Hes kewl... I enjoy being around him and talking with him because he will lissen to me and i like to lissen to him he doesnt tell me all the complaints about how his hair is messed up and how his clothing is not messed up ...Like someone I use to know....No we are not going out we are friends for now and maybe in the future more but for now I enjoy his company as a friend ... Hes cute because hes small... I can basically wear him as a book bag (lol) and... Hes a great person to watch movies with because he likes to cuddle ...Hes very funny ....The funny thing is we are like almost tottal opposites ...For ONE he works at Gap ....And hello I work at Hot Topic ....LOL wow!!! But we still have some things incommin ...Like we both did gaurd ...we both work retail... and probally more but we have to talk and find out more about each other ......
Third on the Agenda .... Sunday Yesterday ....Fonzzie , Josh, Frank, and I took Chriss and Ian out to dinner for their birthday .... It was awsome we ate at Don Pablos nice placy -spicy food.. We all had funn and imbarrised the two with having all the Hotty waiters come out and sing their birthday song for them and they had to wear a big spanish hat what ever the fuck its called ....I of course got my normal .. the spare ribs...yummy!!After Don Pablos we all went home... And Ian and fonzie left early cause they had skewl today and the rest stayed and played games ...We ended up playing Cranium witch made me feel smart cause i actually knew some of the answers...During the first game Evey ended up showing during the middle of the game so that was very kewl cause we got to play another round to make me feel smart again .....Yay Joey Smartt!!
Crainium is such a funn game its hightening my vocabulary and spelling...and at the same time its funn... we also been playing a game called whats behind the green glass doors and it make me think so I been using my noggin alot this past week...
Oh Ruthies Party was a blast it was saturday .... The only problem I had was the long ride up there ...I dint like it because of course I was in the back seat and for some reason my clostaphobia was ganging up with me with the car sickness ... So fonzie and i got into it witch i regret and I dont seriously know if i apoligised to him for snapping at him if i dint Well here it is ""FONZI IM SORRY FOR SNAPPING AT U AND TELLING U TO GO TO HELL"...well when we got to Ruthies you all know what i did of course ....Yep I headed for the strongest drink there ...It was a screw driver but it was a heavy screw driver it was a phillips screw driver ...lol... we ended up hanging out a while ....and while we were there, there was this gurl who just broke up with her b/f and she said he looked just like me and the strangest thing is his name is jose .. and she showed us a pic and he looks just like me it was down to a T ... I was scared ...and that was about it for that night ...
Sunday and today I worked for Hot Topic .... I just cant Tell U all how much funn it is ... I was doing everything from cashier to write downs... its so funnn... OH IF ANY ONE WHO IS READING THIS WE HAVE A MAJOR 50% OFF THING GOING ON IN OUR CLEARANCE SECTION AND THERE IS ALOT OF NICE STUFF THERE .....EVENB IF U DONT LIKE IT FOR LIKE NORMAL WEAR U CAN MAKE A COSTUME OUT OF IT ....Ya so work was fun Today I did the stupidest thing thou today ...I shut my drawer and my shirt got stuck in it...lol i was inbarrised ...I bought these kewl socks too they go past my knee and they are blacked striped .....I cant wait till next weekend because i get to wear wings YAY!!! I can be a rteal fairy ....lol well i think thats about it now ... soo good night all i love u ..
Well im at work right now its kewl ...Its tuesday so its slow ....Well I just got a reply to one of my journal entries and it wsnt anthing about my journal ....In stead it was about fonnzies journal because I told him that i thought he cared too much witch i guess was the wrong thing to do ....because i have been getting evil and i mean evil responce to my journal about them ..... I dont mean that he cares to much in the wrong way .... but I feel like im burdering his life and that he has better things to worry about than me .......
Anyway on a happier not .....My best friend Chriss and I mean MY BEST FRIEND .....finally found me I've been trying to find him since I moved but was never able to get hold of him why i dont have a clue....well any way yesterday Dustin and Chris were over studing for there cologe stuff and all of a sudden pops up my Chris on my door step I was totally suprised he actually hunted me down .... he went to my old house and asked like a million questions trying to find me and then my cuzin gave hime the derections to my house i was so happy to see him ......ITS LIKE I MUST GET BACK TOGETHER WITH MY OLD FRIENDS ....and keep a friendship with them .....because i also got hold of ally tooo...and Krystal and all them .......
On Sunday Evelyn , Frank , Chris B. , and I all went to Philly so we could take some artistic pictures and they came out good ... Eve,Chris, and I all were dressed up gothic.(I have to say i look realy hotr in those pixs) Anyway while in philly we met up with Christopher D. . Hes my buddy I went to skewl with him and hes kewl ...anyway we all chilled and took pictures ....and had a good time ....
On Saturday me and Evelynn hung out like old times we went out to dennys and all the waitresses and waiters were like all suprised to see me .... I havent been there in ages .....Anyway it was me, Eve, Nicole , and the new Chris ( Chris B.) we had funn .... after Dennys we went to franks house because it was gay movie night ..... but we dint get to see any movies cause no one was there till after 12 and eve and the others cerfuw is 12 .... so we played on the trampolien that was interesting i wont get into all that info ..... you dont want to know it was hallarious .....:-)
Lets see Friday .....what did i do ....Ohhhhhh Friday was dustins birthday that wenty really good ..... we had everyone there .... Dustin was very suprised ...He deserves it ... Dustin is a good friend and im glad he has all of us there ... It was fun we had alot to drink ... music and a bunch of junkfood .....yum ....we just all had funn it wasnt like all noisy and it wasnt all dead it was perfect and dustin deserves perfect so.... chris F. u go boy !!!! ......
Anyway I hav another project I have a friend and he is like all sad and thinks no one likes him and its not true ...He likes me and I kinda like him ...but he has kinda of a pass.... He wants help so other wont think of his pass and just take him as he is now but.... I just dont know ....Im going to try ...and i dont care if i get burned .
I dont know .....Ive been in a good mood but i feel like..Im stressed i dont know why but oh well ....