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Well I cant realy sleep right now I have been tossing an turning for like 30 min .....Oh well ....So now I have decided to write in my journal.....its very odd ...I've came to a conclushin today ,while Josh,Paul,and went on our trip,that all te cute gay guys live in central jersey ....I couldnt believe how many I met today ....It was a fun trip. I enjyed hanging out with Paul today while josh had his meeting for work ....Of course it took for ever to get there...about 2 hours .... when actually it was a 45 min trip....Anyway about the cute gay guys....They were like every-where .... I felt like I was window shopping ....Ohhh I like that one too bad I dont have the money for it ......oh well
Last night I finally got hold of Ally its been like forever since I talked to her.... I rewally missed her . We've done alot together ....We just were crazy ....We went together to gt pierced ...We came up with stupid crazy shit to do at 3 in the morning ....... We use to go to Deptford at about 3 and make fucking Palet houses .... That was fun ... We would just drive all over the place .... I remember one time we went all the way up to Northfield Nj just to play DDr .....It was hallarious.....We would g on hunts all threw NJ just to find a DDR machne that was open ....Anyway like I said I got hold of her and shes doing good shes still going out with Greg witch Im happy about cause they ar so cute together....We talked aboutold times and she wants to get thogether again and hangout I think that would be good for me ......
Tomorrows Dustins Birthday >>>>>>< font . color=#6600cc>< font . ptsize=50>< font . face="Comic Sans MS">Happy Birthday Dustin!!!!!!!!!!.......Ya thats aboutall I have to sayabout that .......
I talked to my dad the other day because Im having major money problems here and that made him go off on a rampage tellingme to move there to California with him.....I dont know in a way that might be a good thing to do but in another .....I just cant I have to much here I have Family and Friends that I built here in Nj its just scary to think about leaving them....
Thursday I have a interview fo Hot Topics ....I seriously want to work ther notjust because its Hot Topics but because I want to do something new with my life I realy like retail as strange as it may seem ...and I think I would get along with Everone there .....Ive basically know what to do all ready ....I know ow to keep things in order deal with customers and work with shipment I helpa friend of mine all the time ..... so im praying on this one dearly ....
well imoff for alittle
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.....STAND,UNDER THESE NIGHTS...THAT SINK DOWN FROM THE BITTER SKY TONIGHT.

I cant sleep.......I think its because well I slept till like 5 this afternoon .....Its ALL FRANKS AND CHRIS fault ....onley playing love you guys .....Well last night was fun I went to Rocky to support EVERYONE, but it dint work ...I guess ....Oh well cant make everyone happy but those I did ...I love you !!!! I ended up meeting some new kewl friends (Candice,Melissa,Jake,and more...) Candice and Melissa gave me a nick name . I am now known to them as "TURTLE BUTT" ....lol.....I did very mmuch enjoy the show ..... I got to be in it even thou I was exspecting to be .....I was EDDIE....YAY!!! HARDCORE-(carissa every five minutes that will come out of her mouth )
After the show I was exspecting to go home but it did not work that way I ended up going to franks boat and chillin there with frank chriss and harry (DEPTFORD HARRY) .... It was kewl we all sat there drank and bullshited bout things and soaked the rooms bed ....lol its all franks fault i was not there......
well last saturday i went to the cumberland mall to see josh and they had this cheerleading thing going on.... it was so awsome i really really want to get back into it you dont know that was like my best thing to do .... So any way i asked the lady if she had a senior co ed group and if they were having tryouts soon and she told me to call her if she dint call by monday well guess what tomorrow is ..... yep boys and gurls it monday... so im going to give her a call hopefully they could use me .....
Ohh i also put a aplication in hot topics Im suposed to call there on tuesday ... about 3 ish i will i realy want to work there too..... its funnn i love retail.....I love to help josh at pac sun and when michelle worked at hot topic i loved helping her around.... It would be so kewl if i got that job because i would be able to get there with no problems because josh is all read at the mall ......and i would be able to work with all my friends .....
I dont know why but all of a sudden i just started thinking about joe .... I dont know I hate it that we realy dint have a relationship and that we cant be friends now he was realy kewl to hang around.....I just dont know ......It might be because im single who the hell knows ......I hate being single....lol ....
Im starting to think south jersey is like homo-free there are realy arnt that many gay guys here as i thought .....Oh welll looks like its time to start converting lol.....thats horrible...oh well i can deal with out for now ...I guess but a couple days ago I was talking to steve ...
Steve was my serious first true love and I still love him ....we basically broke up because he isnt out .... Steve really cared about me and I do him .... well any way i was talking to him yes we still talk .... and he said something that got me thinking he said that he still loves me and that he doesnt want to see me hurt....when i asked him what he ment about love if it was a love like i love u bf/bf or i love u man as in f/f he just sat quite and said i dont know i just been thinking about you more than usual ....and that he doesnt want to see me hurt .....He also told me that he feels like the moment for him to come out is coming very soon and he wants me to be around when he does .... I will definetly do that ... I will be by his side because he was always by my side with all the bull shit ive been threw...well i guess im going to try to hit the hay ...but i dont think it will work if not oh well ill be online all night ..lol




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Welll .....Hello all my friends ...Well lets see.......Lets Start with wednesday....Okay Flash back time !!!!!

(WEDNESDAY)- Well Wednesday I basicaly sat around home during the day and cleaned till about i guess it was like 5 then i went and worked with a friend because he was the only one on duty at the time and he needed help...then around like maybe 9 Frank came in to pick me up so we could go to woodies.... But before that we went to Gap so he could get a shirt to wear and he got a pritty nice shirt ..it was like a rust color .... it was sweat I think i mioght get one and redo the whole out fit he was wearing i liked it alot ....well After the GAP(gay and proud) we ended up coming back to the apartment so i could take ashower and figure out what i was going to wear to woodie because u all now damb right well that i wasnt going to be seen not looking good .....lol well while we where at the apartment evelynn stopped by ...good thing frank was having a bad hair day.... so she did franks hair and we all bullshitt awhile ....then we where out ....it was funny because me and frank only went to woodies with just each other along time ago i felt weird ....n e way he was meeting a guy there and so was i....I was meeting my friend matt there but when we got there i dint realize how fucking hard it would be to find him .....he said he would be wearing a gray sleeveless shirt huuuuu.... that narrowed it down to about everyone ..... and then he said his hair was blue blond ....at the time of hime telling me this i was like ok this will be a piece of cake to find him ....Boy was i wrong i dint put into consideration that it was dark in the clubbb ...god im such a fool... well I spent the most of the night playing hide and seek after matt ....meaning i dint find him once.... so i dint meet my person nor did frank .... but i still enjoyed my self...i seen some of my oild friends from buena .....and I seen Nick ....lol hes pritty cute i dont know why but he is ..oh and the guy he was with OMG he was hot he was about 5 foot so cute and a like cute outline bired glasses oMG ....lol
so After the last song me anf frank decided that we might have some luck looking for the guys outside while everyone comes out .....lol ya okay so wrong .....we stood out side for about 10 min and dint see any one .... of course we seen a kewl dragg queen who looked really good she was so close to real and she was going to bitch slap some gurl because she said OMG when she saw the drag queen lol .......so we went home .....i got home and went straight for bed with the stop at the fridge to grab some munchys.....in bed...ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZz........Okay its Thursday ....and like usualy i dint wake up till like 1 so i get up .... im hanging out josh isnt home hes at a funeral and i deside to clean the house again lol ....it really dint need it but i was so bord ....so i clead josh got home about 7 and he went straight to his room soo i desided to make some dinner for us i made a white pasta with spinache and garlic and onions ....it was sooooo good.......so he ate .... oh ya i forgot to tll you paul was here .......lol hes wierd thats enought to say about pual...then fonzi came over and they start to bullshitt it was funny thou....then fonzi left and paul started getting a additude because he thought we were becoming bitchy ..... and i was like oh well ....so then he left alittle later that night i went to sleep about 3 in the morning...........ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzits friday (TODAY) well i wake up at about 12:23 because i dint see the one thinking its actualy 2:23 ohhhh well so i got up early washed the pots i used for dinner the night before and made my bed took a shower shaved.... and well now here i am ...... Fonzis here now .....well I have been thinking about some questions that people ask me and its kinda scary because i dont really know here are the questions : ( if u fell up to it fill it out and tell me )

1.) where do you see your self in 5 yrs ??

2.) Do you see yourself married ??

3.) (for those of u that maybe gay ) Married with your gay partner ??

4.) Children??

5.) Do you like the Gay life style ???


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1.) I hope I have a good Job and im in my own place not that i dont like living with josh but i feel like a burden.
2.) Marriage I truely dont know
3.) I

I Can Fly.....

Well I guess its happening .... I dont know our relationship is just hittin the fans hes changed since Ive been back ....I truely feel like I should of lissen to josh and all the others when they said it wouldnt work out in the beginning ....We truely dont have anything in common and I dint see it ....

Well I met this guy hes kewl ....no its not what you think ....We are just friends ....We just rant on bullshit most of the time ....Its Funn..... We are going to hang out at woodies tonight and make funnn of peeps ....lol....

Talking to ricky right now . Hes going to Shampoo tonight ....I wish I had a car ....I really want to become friends with him ... hes really Kewl ....and we basically all ready hangout....in the cyberworld....He is a very interesting person and very adorible ....

I have been thinking .... I really have ....lol...I want to be a XY boy ....I want to send them some of my pictures but I seriously dont think I have what it takes ....Wouldnt it be so kewl .....Hey look its me in the magazine ....I asked my friend Frank last night if he would take some pictures of me and make a Portfolio, and he said yes and he would do it for free ... so Im happy....I really hope I can do it....

On the brighter side I have to find another job....lol...yes BRIGHTER SIDE ....I cat wait till Hot Topics starts hiring for seasonal ....I love Hot Topic and the people there are like all my friends so we would get along just fine .....

In October I still dont know if I will be able to go to California .....I hoping I can go because it is my aunts and uncles 25 wedding and I am finally getting to know my father and his family ....

I've been sitting here looking out my window and I just realized that its almost a new season and we are going to lose summer .... I love summer and I dont ant to lose it..... I know do anything to prevent it from going but its going .....This summer has been the best one in a while ..... since i truely hung out with my pavilion family .......
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WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! / Have a nice day :-)

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What the fuck ......Have you ever had one of those moments where you realy wanted something and didnt get it ...I realy hate it ...I thought I was being nice and doing something smart when I decided to have a Fellow friend do something but then it back fired on me ......I realy wanted this i was planning this all year and it blown up in my face iI had things so perfect and it blown up in my face im going to cry but i wont cause its not like me to cry..........Right Now i will just yellll....."WHAT THE FFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!""""""""""""
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My god I just wanna cry I feel like everything is falling out from underneath of me and i cant control anything any more .....I cant wait to go back home......well in a way i dont want to go home because god nows what he has planned for me he controls everything he being "GOD" but oh well ...........I think i will just come back to california in october for my aunts weding ......Fonzi thanx for all that you helped me with even thou your not here in cali .......cant wait to see you ............


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the privious last three days i was camping out in the middle of a dessert i went to burning man in Navada...... it was xcelent.....I realy wasnt xpecting to go but my uncle mike realy did get tickets it was funn.....i forgot to get a piece of the man for chriss ......Shit......Over my vacation in cali .....i think i really grown up more ...... well at least i grew out more i got fat i probally eaten everything here you couldthink of from fillipino / hawian food to fast food IN and OUT burger .....YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Ive been every where I went to san fran ------->nevada....Ive gambled at jackson and losty all my money and watched my sister win tons of money .....I gotten very close to my dad witch i am very thankfull for .....and gotten close to the family ......and i realized how much i would miss my friends if i did move to cali.....witch one day might be a opsion for me .....but im not jumping on it right away .....i will take my time ...........OH NOTE FOR JOE>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I LOVE YOU HUNNY AND MISS YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Im bord ....and taking quizes i will update u all on cali soon

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Wednesday, August 28, 2002
7:40PM - Ladies and Gentlemen presenting Joey Sales.
Joey Sales (19) is one of the few people in the world that I can honestly say has impressed me. The boy I met during a Rocky Horror show at DeMarco cinemas is a youthful, high spirited, artistic, fashion blessed, six pack flashing individual who is such a gift to my life. There are moments when I have to do is look at Joey and all I see is a light radiating from him. The beauty and the sense of humor he possess is priceless. So to you Mr. Sales, I tip my hat as the profile of the day. I want you to always know that while I may criticize you about your job and educational choices it is only because I care. You made me feel alive again, and so I thank you.

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    Come home to my house

YAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!

well today so-far is a great day ....last night dint get home till like 4:30 in the morning ....was over my friends house joel playing vidio games and lissening to eugeen play the guitar .... Im trying to get my dad to buy me a nice acoostic for me ... Tomorrow(friday) me and my family will be going to Jackson to a casino where 18 and up are aloud to play ..... hopefully i make it big there ....Sunday my cuzin jolly (sw33tpanda) will be taking me and my sister to GREAT AMERICA!!!!! yay!! MY monong Glen will be comin to stockton for his daughters birthday .....I havent seen him in ages .... I wounder what he like .....ummmmmmmm Oh my friends responded to a entree earlyer and it ment alot to me .....but some how i think i deleted them ooooopppps!
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well today so-far is a great day ....last night dint get home till like 4:30 in the morning ....was over my friends house joel playing vidio games and lissening to eugeen play the guitar .... Im trying to get my dad to buy me a nice acoostic for me ... Tomorrow(friday) me and my family will be going to Jackson to a casino where 18 and up are aloud to play ..... hopefully i make it big there ....Sunday my cuzin jolly (sw33tpanda) will be taking me and my sister to GREAT AMERICA!!!!! yay!! MY monong Glen will be comin to stockton for his daughters birthday .....I havent seen him in ages .... I wounder what he like .....ummmmmmmm Oh my friends responded to a entree earlyer and it ment alot to me .....but some how i think i deleted them ooooopppps! <:-P

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THIS WAS A SHORT STORY I JUST CAME UP WITH FOR MY FRIEND JOSH ............... HOPE U LIKED IT it looked better while i was doing it in the typing area the mountains looked like well they look like hills and the house looked like a castle and the spider liooked like a spider
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